what's up?

my weight.

well, it's been up for a while now. someone once told me i was making excuses for my weight gain. but i can assure everyone out there, that i really dont eat so much. i dont sit on my kitchen floor in the middle of the night making love to chocolate cake. i dont eat packages of cookies in one sitting, or have 5 cheeseburgers for lunch. i really dont eat all of these horrible things that people think i do. i mean, sure, i'll have a scoop of ice cream or something once in a while, just like everyone else. but i really dont go overboard.

quite simply, i had bells palsy, pneumonia, and surgery on my neck (that got infected and required a hospital stay and lots of drugs to cure)... and all within the course of a YEAR. all three.... required steroids. number one side effect? weight gain. thanks for playing.

then.... within the last 2 years or so, i was going to a neurologist. what did they do at the neurologist? trigger point injections. a series of 6-10 shots in the back of my head, and neck. come to find out.... steroids. had i known this.. i would never have taken the shots!

anyways, i gained a whopping 40 lbs since last summer. and about 80 lbs total in the last 2.5 years. i used to be a size 8. not only do you gain weight quite easily on steroids, but taking it off is a real issue.

i'm now pretty damn chubby. i had just started losing weight when i got the news that the baby would be here next feb. so.... obviously, i just have to eat healthy and do the best i can for this baby. i cant gain too much with this pregnancy, it wont be healthy for anyone. i can gain 25 lbs.

but afterwards, it'll be different. i cant be overweight and chasing around after a toddler. it just wont work. so i need to talk to my doc about the easiest way to take off all this weight.


oh well... cant think about all this now. just need to enjoy my baby!