my last blog was about all the non pregnancy weight i gained over the last couple of years.
so.... i figured with all my weight gain in the last year, that i would absolutely blow up with this bebeh.... although i've only gained a total of one pound so far. that is mind boggling. i've lost 2, gained 2, and lost 1. i should have gained between 3-4 so far.
granted i have been battling morning/noon/night sickness.... every since i got this medicine, it's been much better... i just havent been hungry so much. i try... but nothing really sounds good.
i've been trying to snack on healthier stuff... drinking lots of milk (which i despise) and healthier stuff.
i just hope that this slow start in gaining doesnt catch up with me and later i gain 20 lbs in a month... lol.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
what's up?
my weight.
well, it's been up for a while now. someone once told me i was making excuses for my weight gain. but i can assure everyone out there, that i really dont eat so much. i dont sit on my kitchen floor in the middle of the night making love to chocolate cake. i dont eat packages of cookies in one sitting, or have 5 cheeseburgers for lunch. i really dont eat all of these horrible things that people think i do. i mean, sure, i'll have a scoop of ice cream or something once in a while, just like everyone else. but i really dont go overboard.
quite simply, i had bells palsy, pneumonia, and surgery on my neck (that got infected and required a hospital stay and lots of drugs to cure)... and all within the course of a YEAR. all three.... required steroids. number one side effect? weight gain. thanks for playing.
then.... within the last 2 years or so, i was going to a neurologist. what did they do at the neurologist? trigger point injections. a series of 6-10 shots in the back of my head, and neck. come to find out.... steroids. had i known this.. i would never have taken the shots!
anyways, i gained a whopping 40 lbs since last summer. and about 80 lbs total in the last 2.5 years. i used to be a size 8. not only do you gain weight quite easily on steroids, but taking it off is a real issue.
i'm now pretty damn chubby. i had just started losing weight when i got the news that the baby would be here next feb. so.... obviously, i just have to eat healthy and do the best i can for this baby. i cant gain too much with this pregnancy, it wont be healthy for anyone. i can gain 25 lbs.
but afterwards, it'll be different. i cant be overweight and chasing around after a toddler. it just wont work. so i need to talk to my doc about the easiest way to take off all this weight.
oh well... cant think about all this now. just need to enjoy my baby!
well, it's been up for a while now. someone once told me i was making excuses for my weight gain. but i can assure everyone out there, that i really dont eat so much. i dont sit on my kitchen floor in the middle of the night making love to chocolate cake. i dont eat packages of cookies in one sitting, or have 5 cheeseburgers for lunch. i really dont eat all of these horrible things that people think i do. i mean, sure, i'll have a scoop of ice cream or something once in a while, just like everyone else. but i really dont go overboard.
quite simply, i had bells palsy, pneumonia, and surgery on my neck (that got infected and required a hospital stay and lots of drugs to cure)... and all within the course of a YEAR. all three.... required steroids. number one side effect? weight gain. thanks for playing.
then.... within the last 2 years or so, i was going to a neurologist. what did they do at the neurologist? trigger point injections. a series of 6-10 shots in the back of my head, and neck. come to find out.... steroids. had i known this.. i would never have taken the shots!
anyways, i gained a whopping 40 lbs since last summer. and about 80 lbs total in the last 2.5 years. i used to be a size 8. not only do you gain weight quite easily on steroids, but taking it off is a real issue.
i'm now pretty damn chubby. i had just started losing weight when i got the news that the baby would be here next feb. so.... obviously, i just have to eat healthy and do the best i can for this baby. i cant gain too much with this pregnancy, it wont be healthy for anyone. i can gain 25 lbs.
but afterwards, it'll be different. i cant be overweight and chasing around after a toddler. it just wont work. so i need to talk to my doc about the easiest way to take off all this weight.
oh well... cant think about all this now. just need to enjoy my baby!
Friday, July 23, 2010
bitch bitch bitch
but hey... it's my own little space to do it right?
dont get me wrong... i'm happy. joyous. ecstatic to be in my delicate condition. i'm so thrilled to be growing this new life inside of me that i can hardly stand it.
although the side effects, i sure could do without. nausea, vomiting, headaches, exhaustion, and other issues i cant mention for fear of a reader with an easily upset stomach.
now that my nausea and vomiting has been cut pretty much by 90%, i'm left with this damn exhaustion. i am up and around better than i was, but i was low on energy pre-bunintheoven. so this is absolutely not helping.
today, i tried to hold my own. by the end of the night, i was ready to fall over. my feet were killing me, and i damn near fell asleep on the drive home.
there WILL come a time, when the symptoms disapear for a while, and i can relax and enjoy this miracle... but for now, i'm just.... blech.
dont get me wrong... i'm happy. joyous. ecstatic to be in my delicate condition. i'm so thrilled to be growing this new life inside of me that i can hardly stand it.
although the side effects, i sure could do without. nausea, vomiting, headaches, exhaustion, and other issues i cant mention for fear of a reader with an easily upset stomach.
now that my nausea and vomiting has been cut pretty much by 90%, i'm left with this damn exhaustion. i am up and around better than i was, but i was low on energy pre-bunintheoven. so this is absolutely not helping.
today, i tried to hold my own. by the end of the night, i was ready to fall over. my feet were killing me, and i damn near fell asleep on the drive home.
there WILL come a time, when the symptoms disapear for a while, and i can relax and enjoy this miracle... but for now, i'm just.... blech.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
follow up
back to the doctor in a little bit. follow up from the ultrasound and everything. will update when i get home!
appt went well! just confirmed that monkey is indeed growing and is the right size. because that particular doctor does not see pregnant patients past the first trimester, we were referred out. i found a new doc, and have an appt on the 10th of aug. yay! we should be able to tell the sex by then with an ultrasound. woo hoo
appt went well! just confirmed that monkey is indeed growing and is the right size. because that particular doctor does not see pregnant patients past the first trimester, we were referred out. i found a new doc, and have an appt on the 10th of aug. yay! we should be able to tell the sex by then with an ultrasound. woo hoo
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
nothing to see here.... move along
yeah, not much of anything today.
slightly sick to my tummy a little. popping zofran like PEZ. i've definitely felt worse though. this stuff is a godsend!
i'm excited to find out what we have. a bunch of women on my mommy group board have used the "intelligender" to see what their babies are. it's sold in stores.. but it's 35 bucks... i dunno if i wanna lay down that kind of cash on something that may or may not be accurate.
i could just wait the 6 or 7 weeks to see what we're having.
our names are pretty much picked out, so it's just a matter of seeing which one we get to use! LOL
slightly sick to my tummy a little. popping zofran like PEZ. i've definitely felt worse though. this stuff is a godsend!
i'm excited to find out what we have. a bunch of women on my mommy group board have used the "intelligender" to see what their babies are. it's sold in stores.. but it's 35 bucks... i dunno if i wanna lay down that kind of cash on something that may or may not be accurate.
i could just wait the 6 or 7 weeks to see what we're having.
our names are pretty much picked out, so it's just a matter of seeing which one we get to use! LOL
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
what's up, doc?
doc appt today went well! i saw the doc, whom i really liked, but was informed that he does not see pregnant patients after the first trimester.. booo so he'll send me to one of his fellow OB doctors.
after my "exam", we went into the office. we talked about my constant nausea and vomiting. he said just to continue drinking water... and i said "no! ZOFRAN!".... he said that he wondered how i knew what that was... ha ha.. i'm a smart cookie. zofran was developed for chemo patients and their nausea and vomiting, but FDA approved for morning sickness as well. so i got my scrip.. and these little pills (40 dollars each normally) were fully covered by insurance. yayyyy!
then i was scheduled for a dating ultrasound, in which they tell me how far along i really am. that was for 3 hours later.
with a full bladder, we drive to the imaging center. after a short wait, a perky little blonde calls us back. she was completely sweet and took her time. when i asked how many pics they printed out, she said that they dont print them out there. :( POOP. but she did allow me to take a couple with my cell phone which was awesome.
she said everything looked great! i'm measuring where i'm supposed to! 10 weeks, 1 day. baby looks great. i'm so excited! we saw the little heartbeat flickering on the screen, nice and healthy!
back at home. EXHAUSTING day of errands, cooking, and cleaning. the zofran makes me a little sleepy, but it's definitely helping with the nausea. i feel it EVER SO SLIGHTLY for a min or so at a time, but i feel 90% better!
after my "exam", we went into the office. we talked about my constant nausea and vomiting. he said just to continue drinking water... and i said "no! ZOFRAN!".... he said that he wondered how i knew what that was... ha ha.. i'm a smart cookie. zofran was developed for chemo patients and their nausea and vomiting, but FDA approved for morning sickness as well. so i got my scrip.. and these little pills (40 dollars each normally) were fully covered by insurance. yayyyy!
then i was scheduled for a dating ultrasound, in which they tell me how far along i really am. that was for 3 hours later.
with a full bladder, we drive to the imaging center. after a short wait, a perky little blonde calls us back. she was completely sweet and took her time. when i asked how many pics they printed out, she said that they dont print them out there. :( POOP. but she did allow me to take a couple with my cell phone which was awesome.
she said everything looked great! i'm measuring where i'm supposed to! 10 weeks, 1 day. baby looks great. i'm so excited! we saw the little heartbeat flickering on the screen, nice and healthy!
back at home. EXHAUSTING day of errands, cooking, and cleaning. the zofran makes me a little sleepy, but it's definitely helping with the nausea. i feel it EVER SO SLIGHTLY for a min or so at a time, but i feel 90% better!
Monday, July 19, 2010
breakdown
i had a complete emotional breakdown.
i'm so sick of being sick. i know this is normal. i should be filled with pride and joy over the creation of this new life.
but making friends with the toilet is not exactly how i wanted to spend the first part of my pregnancy. i should be glowy, and happy, and telling anyone who will listen about this miracle i'm baking.
but it's non stop nausea. i'm trying anything and everything. i havent been able to keep any food down today. liquids either. i sent hubby out for some soup and 7up, and am hoping that helps. i'm also going to try some emetrol, and hopefully that keeps the nausea down for 10 minutes... grrrrr.
i guess i just had my first good crying spell for no "serious" reason at all... gotta love the hormones.
and i REALLY have to love my hubby for dealing with such an emotional basketcase.
i'm so sick of being sick. i know this is normal. i should be filled with pride and joy over the creation of this new life.
but making friends with the toilet is not exactly how i wanted to spend the first part of my pregnancy. i should be glowy, and happy, and telling anyone who will listen about this miracle i'm baking.
but it's non stop nausea. i'm trying anything and everything. i havent been able to keep any food down today. liquids either. i sent hubby out for some soup and 7up, and am hoping that helps. i'm also going to try some emetrol, and hopefully that keeps the nausea down for 10 minutes... grrrrr.
i guess i just had my first good crying spell for no "serious" reason at all... gotta love the hormones.
and i REALLY have to love my hubby for dealing with such an emotional basketcase.
argh. insurance
i need to make a doctor appointment.
so i get insurance, and no one accepts it. 2 hours of phone calls later, i have secured said doctor appointment. although not without some attitude and bitching.
note to insurance companies... please keep your provider information up to date, so i dont have to call 20 different doctor's offices, and then call YOU and yell at you. kthx.
i'm really excited to go though. i hope everything goes well.
update on the nausea. hubby bought me some vitamin B6 yesterday, and last night, felt pretty good. however today, i'm back at square one, and ready to camp out next to the bowl for a while....
i thought this was supposed to stop soon. :(
so i get insurance, and no one accepts it. 2 hours of phone calls later, i have secured said doctor appointment. although not without some attitude and bitching.
note to insurance companies... please keep your provider information up to date, so i dont have to call 20 different doctor's offices, and then call YOU and yell at you. kthx.
i'm really excited to go though. i hope everything goes well.
update on the nausea. hubby bought me some vitamin B6 yesterday, and last night, felt pretty good. however today, i'm back at square one, and ready to camp out next to the bowl for a while....
i thought this was supposed to stop soon. :(
Sunday, July 18, 2010
down with the sickness
i have no idea how to tell people how far along i am. technically.... i'm in my third month, although i'm 10 weeks pregnant.
either way you put it, i'm excited to be pregnant. a lot of my time is filled with daydreams of our future.
will we have a boy or a girl? what will we name baby? who will the baby look like? how will we decorate the baby's room?
lately though, the most common thought going through my whole family's mind... is when the hell am i going to feel better? day and night, it's hard for me to keep my meals down...it's a constant struggle. i was told that i should be thankful for my ever present nausea and vomiting. that means my hormones are doing what they should.
with my loss years ago, i remember not feeling very sick at all. with zoe, i seem to remember feeling like i do now, so maybe it's a good sign?
it's quite funny to watch me on a daily basis... all we have to do is pass by a fast food place or something that doesnt appeal to me, and watch me freak out and start dry heaving. my food aversions are quite lovely as well. the biggest one is lettuce. for some reason the thought of it sends me into a dry heave.... as it just did. every time hubby goes somewhere to fullfill one of my many cravings, i make sure and tell him "no lettuce!" being the smart ass that he is, and me having told him 80 times before, he replies "extra lettuce? okay!".
then we get the headaches. i've suffered from horrible debilitating headaches for years now. surgeries, steroids, injections, medications, etc. so to get them now, and have the only thing i can take, be tylenol, is a nightmare. i can tell you first hand, that tylenol doesnt do crap for my headaches. still, i down as many as stated on the manufacturer's instructions, and take a couple sips of soda with caffeine, hoping that helps too. (i'm off the caffeine throughout this miraculous journey!)
i think my family is more concerned with my hormones. to say that my personality changed is putting it mildly. i'm extremely confrontational, grumpy, and just plain.... bitchy. i cant wait for that to pass, and have ME back again!
all right... i've got more day dreaming to do, so i'm done for now. i have about 8 billion other blogs that i dont keep up on, so hopefully i'll be able to to keep up on this one.
either way you put it, i'm excited to be pregnant. a lot of my time is filled with daydreams of our future.
will we have a boy or a girl? what will we name baby? who will the baby look like? how will we decorate the baby's room?
lately though, the most common thought going through my whole family's mind... is when the hell am i going to feel better? day and night, it's hard for me to keep my meals down...it's a constant struggle. i was told that i should be thankful for my ever present nausea and vomiting. that means my hormones are doing what they should.
with my loss years ago, i remember not feeling very sick at all. with zoe, i seem to remember feeling like i do now, so maybe it's a good sign?
it's quite funny to watch me on a daily basis... all we have to do is pass by a fast food place or something that doesnt appeal to me, and watch me freak out and start dry heaving. my food aversions are quite lovely as well. the biggest one is lettuce. for some reason the thought of it sends me into a dry heave.... as it just did. every time hubby goes somewhere to fullfill one of my many cravings, i make sure and tell him "no lettuce!" being the smart ass that he is, and me having told him 80 times before, he replies "extra lettuce? okay!".
then we get the headaches. i've suffered from horrible debilitating headaches for years now. surgeries, steroids, injections, medications, etc. so to get them now, and have the only thing i can take, be tylenol, is a nightmare. i can tell you first hand, that tylenol doesnt do crap for my headaches. still, i down as many as stated on the manufacturer's instructions, and take a couple sips of soda with caffeine, hoping that helps too. (i'm off the caffeine throughout this miraculous journey!)
i think my family is more concerned with my hormones. to say that my personality changed is putting it mildly. i'm extremely confrontational, grumpy, and just plain.... bitchy. i cant wait for that to pass, and have ME back again!
all right... i've got more day dreaming to do, so i'm done for now. i have about 8 billion other blogs that i dont keep up on, so hopefully i'll be able to to keep up on this one.
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